A New Way of Living

So, for awhile now, I have been asking God to help me get more motivated to lose weight and get back into an exercise routine. (which hasn't happened since I was pregnant with Lily.) I had not been feeling well for awhile and when I went to the doctor to get blood work, I was thinking they were going to tell me I needed more iron. Well, on January 2nd, I got my blood results back. Iron was not the problem. I was diagnosed with diabetes. Which shouldn't have been super surprising since it does run in my family, my dad has had it for years & does an awesome job of keeping it under control. (And me being overweight probably didn't help either). But, I was still surprised and not too happy. I think I was in denial for the first few days. I thought that if I just stopped eating carbs & sugars that when I went to the doctor again, that they would tell me I was fine. I wasn't. In fact, I probably have had it for about a year. So, note to self, go to the doctor when you don't feel good. Don't wait!! After my second appointment (and then going and bawling on my mommy), I was not in denial, I was (and still am) in full learning mode. I have completely changed my eating habits, I have started exercising again, and I have even lost 14 pounds so far. My blood sugars are at a good level, and I am feeling better. I am pretty proud of myself. I do know that this is a lifetime change, and I am OK with that now. I know I will slip up and eat something I shouldn't, but I will not continue to slip up, because I want to be healthy for my kids and Jeff. But mostly for myself.

I am putting this out now, because I was afraid to tell anyone before (besides my parents & one sister who happened to ask how my blood work came out). I don't know why. Embarrassment maybe? Scared of people's reactions? Scared to admit it to others because it made it more real? Maybe it is a combination of all three. I do know that I have an amazing family and a supportive family. No judgment, only people who listen and let me tell them what I am doing and just being supportive. And I guess I would like to bounce ideas off of other people as well.

So, while this is not where I saw my life going, and it would not have been my choice of how I got motivated to lose weight, it is what it is, and I am finally listening. It may be hard at times, but I am going to make the best of it!